My Resolutions For 2009

I am pretty private about my resolutions and things like that because if I change my mind or don't stick to them (for one reason or another). I always feel like people will feel disappointed in me or they will pester me about it and that is something I don't want. Then I read Stacy's (Squirrel Chatter) and was inspired to give it a shot. Here goes.

1) Find a church (that isn't outside of our comfort zone). Long story but we used to belong to a really neat little church that ended up dissolving. Then tried church shopping at several churches that were so, uh, not us. Then we just got a little freaked out on church period.

2) Be more positive. Whether that means in general or being nicer too, I am going to strive for this. BUT, this doesn't just mean on the outside, I can do that very easily. Trouble is that I often have little one liner jokes in my head all the time that I either hold in or say out loud. I have always loved to give people crap. Not necessarily in a mean way, I just love to make people laugh. Problem is that people don't always know that I'm joking. The police department is full of sarcasm and wit, I think that this is how the cops cope with the stress of their jobs. I am married to a cop who brings a lot of this home. In turn, I have been noticing myself talking a lot more like this. Probably because it is my way of coping with the stress of being married to a stressed out cop. If that makes any sense?

3) Possibly take a family trip somewhere and/or an overnight with my husband. Either of these sound fun but are a lot more work with a child. Even when they aren't coming with. I still nurse Little Buddy before bed and when he wakes up so that is a concern. Plus, we still do not have a will made up and leaving Little Buddy without some sort of plan I feel is selfish and foolish.

4) Get a will. This I feel is so vital. Not only that we organize everything and have some kind of plan in the even we die together without Little Buddy, there needs to be a plan for him so there is less of an issue for his life, happiness, and welfare. Even if Little Buddy and I survive, we need some kind of a plan to carry on. After all, being married to a cop is very high risk and we need to get everything organized just in case.

5) Get pregnant. This one is pretty self explanatory. We took December off but need to get "back in the saddle again," once the new year begins. Maybe it is in the stars for us, maybe not. Either way, Little Buddy is a blessing, a miracle, and a gift of God and we appreciate every minute we have with him. These days will not last forever and one day we will look back and miss them because they went sooooooo fast. I digress, we would love to add on. This little family of ours is a pretty cool thing.

6) Lose weight. Obviously this will not be happening if we do in fact achieve number 5. If we don't or until we do I am still overweight from having Little Buddy. I lost 30 pounds last year and then went up about 10 (darn holidays), but still need to be lighter. Life must be so excellent for thin people, it was for me back when I was thin. I really despise being fat, ugh!

7) Organize photos. Have prints made and put prints into frames and into Little Buddy's photo album. Send out doubles and extras I have loaded up in boxes, etc. Have some old black and whites of old relatives blown up and framed and even gift them accordingly.

8) Take Little Buddy even more places, do more things with him. The possibilities are endless. I want to show him the world. It is a complete joy and wonder to see the world and everything in it with and through the eyes of a child.

9) Take a yoga class. Just something I've wanted to try for a long time. It's very hard to commit to a class because of my husband's crazy schedule. They have a day care at the gym BUT Little Buddy did not do well there the last time I left him there.

10) Renew my FOID card and re-certify. I am not a fan of guns or violence. Years ago I got my FOID card and certified at a range as a fun thing to do to take part in my (now) husband's interests. To tell you the truth, I was a pretty good shot. I now see that it is vital to know how to use the guns in our home. Being married to a police officer is very high risk. For one, they are gone all kinds of odd hours. The dog would most likely be the best burglar alarm but if someone makes it past him I'd at least have a way to defend myself. For two, people who are arrested and/or thrown in jail or prison because of my husband can get a little nuts. It would be highly unlikely but people have been known to go after the arresting cop and/or his family. I don't want to take any chances. If it came down to someone coming in my home and grabbing Little Buddy or attempting to hurt my family, I would have no reservations, NONE! The one big thing that has held me back for the last 3 years was the lead exposure from the ammo (year one I was pregnant and the last two years I have been nursing, which I still am). I just learned (from my secret service agent friend) that there are lead free bullets that you can request, COOL!