My Life Right Now In Bullets

· I am huger than huge, EXCEEDING MAXIMUM CAPACITY actually. Baby is in 80th percentile and transverse too. They think I can go any time. Only 35 weeks as of yesterday, so I am just praying for a minimum of 2 more weeks so the little stinker can avoid having many problems of prematurity. Little Buddy was 3 weeks early and had several issues. I had to schedule my section the other day for the last 3 weekdays in the second week in November. Dr. Dickhead works the first two, so yes, I am scheduled to have my cesarean on Friday, November 13th. There's NO WAY, I'm making it that far.

· As much as the baby is my focus, I worry too about Little Buddy and the change and everything. He started to stutter 2 weeks ago, literally overnight. The nurse said that it could be from stress, or the upcoming change that's about to happen, OR it could just be happening cause it happens to many little boys as a phase. She said it happened to her son at the same age and came and went, they just ignored it. We are supposed to ignore it completely. It was almost gone a few days ago. Then it started up again.

· Cop Dad is scheduled to go to FTO training quite a distance away the week of October 26th. As much as I hope he does not miss it, it is on the last of my priority list. After all, when you are at the end of your life, will you reflect about your FTO status or about the children you shared your life with? He feels the same way but I know that he will still be bummed if it does not work out. I would be 37 weeks or term by the Sunday the day before training begins. Just hopeful that he is not far away when I go into labor and he misses it and also misses the end of training.

· Swelling up badly and quickly lately. Not doing a whole lot. Got most things done for baby. I feel kind of stifled. Wanting to do more at the end here but then again doing day trips is much harder and more exhausting and we are afraid about being too far from hospital. Inside I am itching to cook, bake, go do play dates with friends, travel, garden, do Thanksgiving for my third year. I took it on a few years ago when Little Buddy was big enough and I loved it and this year there's just no way. Oh, and truth be told, I just fantasize about not being pregnant anymore.

· Enjoying my Little Buddy. Despite his speech issue, he is going through a very fun and loving and sweet and funny phase. Not that he is not always like that but it seems extra cute and loving lately. Hoping he handles the transition well, when baby comes. He is the light of my life.

· With all the training that Cop Dad has been going through lately our stress-o-meter (as well as our schedule) is like a roller coaster. He put in for FTO, then they gave him DTI, and ET. Then they also sent him to driving class and verbal judo. Then he stresses about the baby and well you can imagine the stress level.

· I love this time of year. I love fall and the colors and yes, I love Halloween. I do not see it as an evil that must be endured. I see it for it's cute costumes, candy, caramel covered apples, hay rides, corn mazes, pumpkins, apple picking, beautiful leaves, oh and I love haunted houses and scary movies too even though they are "evil."

· Rolling up on our 6th wedding anniversary this week. Not sure what we are doing yet. Hope we will be eating something wonderful and not in the hospital yet. We have been together since the summer of 1998, but we both needed to finish college and start our careers, etc. Then we enjoyed each other and partied and traveled and had a great time first. So it's really been 11 years. Some people don't think it counts but those first 5 years were very significant for us. Not sure if we would still be together if we didn't have those first five years under our belts before getting married. Older bride, older momma, just how I wanted it :)

· It's cold here now. Yesterday night we had a hard freeze not just a frost. Usually we have a lengthy, warm fall but this year it's been a wet, cold and cloudy one. Great for hot pregnant women but a bummer if you like to bask in the warm sunny days of Indian summer.

· Every one's sleeping well and a lot lately. Thank God for that because we all need it.